Had quite a lesson in karma. Some nasty old lady today was like "I don't need your help. I'm not fucking helpless you know" when I was getting carts and offering to help her load her car. So guess what happened 20 minutes later when I had to get carts again? She was crying to me begging me to help her find her card that she lost. Maybe you shouldn't be so rude to a guy that's just trying to do his job? If you don't want his help, be like "No thank you, I'm fine". Let that be a lesson to you granny.
I don't know if it's just the holidays, but I've been getting extra stressed at work lately. I don't know how many times today I went "OHHHHHH!" out of pure frustration. Honestly, I bit my tongue so hard it may be gushing out blood at this point. It's hard to keep your cool when you have an idiot customer to deal with on top of your managers riding you and everyone else while they just stand around and do nothing productive, but heaven forbid you slow down at all! Honestly, if I wasn't afraid of losing my job, I would have happily opened verbal fire on some of the customers I had to deal with. Especially when I was called "rude" for trying to help someone load their car. To be honest, I guess I DID express myself a bit too loudly to one customer. She left her cart but ten steps from a cart corral. I walked away, saying "Are you fucking kidding me??" under my breath, but not low enough. Why? Because the lazy bitch went right back in the store and gave my manager hell for me saying that. So her laziness = my write-up? I know it's because I dropped the F-bomb, although "Are you kidding me" alone could have done it. Just adding the F-bomb was the nail in the coffin.
Is it a coincidence that I can't seem to keep emotionally stable anymore given all the stress at work because of Thanksgiving around the corner? I'm not as snippy at home though. But work just makes me cringe when I get dressed for it. I just know I'm bracing myself for a 6-7 hour marathon of every annoying thing a customer could do and having the patience to not say what I'm thinking and end up on another 6+ month job search.